KATSUBOU METHOD Vol. 5 ~The stepbrother~ [ENGLISH]

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Katsubou Method Vol. 5

~The stepbrother~

[CV: Kaji Yuuki - Nase Ichiya]

Track 01 - Pretending nothing happened

*cell buzzing*

Hm? Someya? What happened? *sigh* Ah. I don't think I'll make it today either. I haven't been able to reach my sister. *sigh* Yeah, I haven't been able to contact her since last week. My father is abroad so she's living by herself. If I’d known something like this would happen I’d better not move out. I'm sorry for making you worry, Someya; but it's been really helpful that you're also looking for her. I can't continue all by myself... Eh? No, it's just... sorry. It's a bit weird having you cheering me up. I'm sorry. I'm counting on you. Well, I'm going. We'll talk later. Yeah, I'll be waiting.

[02:07] To think that I'm worrying Someya, I'm pitiful. Why is it that whenever she's involved I lose my cool? What is she to me as a sister? We’re not blood related. To be honest I've got no idea what the answer is, however I can't stop worrying. As her older brother I can only protect her.

[03:05] There is something I've always hidden from her. When she suddenly became my sister, on one side I wanted to welcome her as real family, yet on the other side I wasn't sure I felt okay living together. What is family? I often wondered. We weren't blood related and we didn't share any memories. I used to think I couldn't provide her with trust and safety, besides, she wasn't hoping to find it either. That is because she'd always been lonely. Even though she grew up with her childhood friends and her father raised her by himself, she always gave a sense of solitude. I also suffered from loneliness when my parents divorced, hence somehow I felt like we were partners. That's how we gradually became a family. At that time she seemed happy, she was so embarrassed that she couldn't mutter an answer, but I felt the same way. *sigh*

[05:02] I know well I didn't make a good job as a brother. I took care of her from afar only, convinced that it was the best I could do. How convenient, right? You had no idea. I never told you a thing. There is something I've always hidden from you, and I have no intention to tell you; the sin I committed on that night...

*flashback*

[06:28] Sleeping here again? You cooked dinner and waited for me? You don't have to push yourself so much. I'm grateful for taking care of the house chores but you have me and my mother now. You don't need to assign yourself chores. You see, from my perspective I think you're scared for coming into the family. You're afraid of losing your new family, I can read in your face you don't know how to close the distance. Fufu. Yeah, however, in spite of always noticing you're searching for the right words to say, when I came back yesterday you wouldn't speak a word. I'm not one to speak, though. I'm sorry I made you feel lonely. How are you supposed to lean on someone whose back is all you see, right? *sigh*

[08:13] You see, I'm also scared of us becoming family, although in a different way from yours. It's not that I can't see you as family, is just that I don't want us to become family. Why could it be...? If we become family I won't be able to stay by your side, the distance between us will never cease to exist. I know well I'm being contradictory, I don't understand myself. It might be I don't want to see you as my little sister. I'm sorry. *kiss* It's unfair of me to take advantage that you're asleep to touch you, to apologize, and then pretend nothing ever happened. It's strange that I tell you not to worry; nevertheless, everything will be alright. I will continue to take care of you as my little sister, even if you don't ask me to.

*flashback ends*

*steps*

[10:43] I've searched everywhere already. Only our parents’ house is left. It's been almost a year since I last set foot there.

*opens fence* *doorbell rings*

As I thought, she's not here... *takes out keys and enters the house* It's still exactly the same as when mom died and I left. Time stopped in this house since that day. *tic toc* Silence took over the warmth home where she had spent time with her family. It became a lonely place. It was probably because of that day's accident. Nobody wished for something like this to happen. It was more than enough for us with being able to spend time and laugh together as a regular family.

[12:55] I should have stayed by her side when she was depressed and feeling guilty for my mother's death, even so, I selfishly sought my own wellbeing and left the house, leaving her in solitude. Do you resent me and that's why you disappeared? Let me make it up to you. I'll see after you forever, so, I'm begging you, don't rob me from the chance to right my wrong. Come back to me.

*tic toc* *cell buzzing*

Natsuki? ...! Why does he have my mail? No, more important… Darn it. I'm an idiot! Why wasn't I suspicious of them in the first place? It's obvious if I think about it calmly. They'd be the firsts to make an uproar about her disappearance. Nevertheless, they were strangely calmed, living their daily lives as if nothing happened. I knew well they didn't like me, Natsuki and Haruki, they're that close to her. It's understandable they alienate me since I suddenly became part of her family. This is why they've let pass several days on purpose before contacting me. Normally going to meet them would be the last thing I'd do, yet the content of the message was too much. I beg you, stay safe. Wait for me. I'll save you.

*tic toc*

Track 02 - Feigning ignorance

*heavy breathing*

This is the address in Natsuki's mail, right? Is she really here in this common suburban area? Certainly it would be harder to find her if she's kept captive in a regular house with nothing flashy about it. Gh.

*wind*

[00:53] The wind's gone stronger. What happened? It all went silent. *tic toc* Hm? A clock is ticking? ...!! What's going on? *bells* What the heck!? *door slamming* *bells*

[01:54] Mghh... What the...? It makes no sense, why has the scenery before my eyes changed? Out of nowhere a mansion appeared in the middle of the suburbs, am I dreaming? I- ...!! *runs* Why is she inside the mansion!? *cell buzzing* A mail? "You're here". So she really is the one inside. *opens fence*

[03:17] It's quiet an old building, from the Taisho era maybe. No, is its architecture, that's why it doesn't seem like the years passed by it. *chains* *door creaks open* Does this mean they want me to go inside?

*hurried steps* *heavy breathing*

[04:19] I haven't heard a single sound despite going round and round. Could it be this is not the place? *chains* ...!! What a relief! I finally found you. *hugs* I want to make sure is you that I'm seeing right here with me. All this time I've been looking for you, I was worried 'cause I had no way to contact you. I was worried sick. I was so afraid that I couldn't find you. Let me stay like this a little longer... I'm sorry, you must've been scared. I'm sorry it took me so long to come to your rescue. Right, are you hurt? You're listening, right? *chains* Those chains, is this Natsuki and Haruki's doing? Did they do something to you? Why did they make such a mess of you? Why you?

[07:06] Let's get out of here, we'll look for them and asked them questions later. *steps* They must know where I live as they know our parents’ house. If we use Someya's room we might win some time. What's wrong? Don't you want leave? Did they forbid you leaving? You don't want to stay here by will, right? Wai- *steps and chains* I see. I won't pull your arm so don't go away from me. I've finally found you, I don't want to lose you from my sight. You... your arm is freezing cold. Your shoulders, your neck too, they're ice cold. Nonetheless, a subtle sweet scent-... I'm sorry, I got weird. It's not quite clear to me but it felt as if I was being seduced. This is my sister I’m talking about. Let's get out here for the time being. I'm taking you somewhere safe, once there we'll talk thoroughly. It’s alright, I'll protect you. I won't let you go through something this scary again.

*chains*

[10:04] What's-? What are you doing out of the blue? *you bite him* Ghhhhh... Why? What are you doing? Stop- Ghhhhh... Why? I'm begging you. Gggh. Who are you? Drinking human blood like this, there is no way you're human. Stop-!! I'm pathetic, falling over. Don't come closer. If you understand don't move from where you are.

[12:48] I asked you a moment ago who are you. Why don't you answer? What on earth are you? The mansion popped up from nowhere and I was so perplexed that I asked myself if I wasn't dreaming. If this is no dream, if this is reality, what's happened to you? Eh? Wait. Where are you…!? You, you just... you just called my name, don't you? You know who I am? Call my name again. I want to hear you say my name. You know who I am, right?

[15:05] Whatever happened to you in here doesn't matter anymore; for me it's enough having you back. Please, don't leave, stay inside my arms, I beg you.

Track 03 - Questioned, exposed

Mmh... they won't open. If window was clogged breaking it would do the trick, however, though it looks like glass at first sight, when touched it becomes clear it is something else. For a start, what the heck is this mansion? On the outside looks one way but on the inside is actually different. Almost like there was a different building inside. Mm. Are you awake? *chains*

[00:59] Everything will be fine, I'm here. Sleep for another bit. While you were asleep I looked around the mansion, but wherever I went it turned out to be the same place. It was really bewildering to arrive at the room where I left you asleep. I wonder if it's not really a dream. Uh? What's wrong? *lick* What the...!? It's a wound from when I was inspecting the mansion; I've stopped bleeding so you don't need to lick it nor anything.

[02:11] Stop. Why are you doing this? Stop licking my blood! You're a regular human! I beg you, don't do that! You're wrong, I'm not afraid of you. Even if you're not the same, still I won’t abandon you, because I'm your... I'm your family.

[03:19] I'm your family and even if you were changed I'll accept you. I'll never abandon you. Don’t you wo- *chains* *you bite him again* Gggggggh. Sto... the wound will get bigger... Gggghh... I tell you to stop... the wound is... Aaah... Ghhhh... Who... are you? You call me "brother", you take my hand, you ask me if I'm afraid of you, is it really you who's talking? I told you I'd accept you, didn't I? I won't abandon you no matter what you do to me. That's because it's you, however, is it really my sister the one in front of me?

[05:53] Why do you ask me such a thing? Hey, what's going on with you? Why do you laugh like this? I've no idea how should I react when you laugh like that, so cute and scary at the same time.

[06:50] Why do you ask me such a thing? I want to help you out of here, that's why I was looking for you restlessly. It's my only wish... No! I want us to be siblings; don't seduce me with such a womanly expression. I've always restraint myself, I always pretended not to notice, I always regretted that day. I see you as my sister, nothing more. There's no way I could harbor such thoughts.

[08:35] That wound on you... Stop! Why do you dig on your own wound!? I'm telling you to stop! Are you telling me to lick it? If I turn into the same as you will you stop crying? Very well.

Track 04 - Even so I cling on to you

I don't know whether this is the right thing, but you've cried... *breathes in* The day of the accident you didn't cry in front of me. Mom died protecting you, even when you blamed yourself and did nothing but apologize to me, even then you didn't cry, as if you believed you had no right to be sad. Forgive me. I'm sorry I didn't support you. When mom died I stopped taking care of you and selfishly took distance. If mom was resented to someone that someone would be me. She'd be mad that I didn't protect you. So it’s okay. This is the first time you’ve come to my aid. That's enough for me to dedicate myself to you.

[02:35] I won’t fear anymore. If you want me to be with you then I will. It doesn't matter even if we fall into the abyss. *chains* *licks and slurps* Fufufu. *slurps* In a way... *slurps* I know it's not tasty, with its irony flavor, and even so... *slurps* Is crazy to be drinking my little sister’s blood, however... *slurps* even so, it makes me a bit happy. I don't care what I have to become as long as... you need me as you do now, *slurps* and I could grant your wishes.

[05:43] I wanted to have something from you; one single thing would do. If I couldn't reach your heart as your brother then your body, if I couldn't reach your body then your emotions, and if I couldn't reach your emotions then your soul... *laugh* You see, I wonder why when I understood you wasn't yourself I couldn't help but thinking this was my chance. It's unfair to confess my true feelings in this situation, right? I'm sorry.

*tic toc*

[06:59] The sound of the clock just now is the same as before... ghhhh... suddenly... it hurts... ghhhhh... I'm... okay... *difficult breathing* Darn... Why does my throat burns? Ghhhhh...

[08:33] It didn't work... once more... *difficult breathing* I'm sorry... I threw up all your blood... let's try again, this time I'll keep it inside... *chains* Why? Why do you refuse? *gasp* I'm doing it because you wanted to... After all, you won't be mine, right? *laugh* Why are you making that face?

[10:16] You had already stopped crying, yet your eyes are clouded with tears again. It’s alright. I don't mind walking down the path of madness if we're together, but if you come to a halt then we’ll return together. Let's go back and be a family again.

Track 05 - Allow me to love you, even if it’s fragmentary

Stop crying. I've told you already you don't need to apologize to me. It must be terrifying to be the only one changed. Even so, in spite of disliking the idea of being the only one who changed, you were afraid of me changing, right? Despite having enough already with what you're going through you still worry about me. You could be more selfish and say whether you're afraid, whether you dislike something or if you need help. Well, you might be a lost case, considering how clumsy you are for these things.

[01:27] I'm sorry too. Until now, whatever happened or whatever complaint you had, you never sought my aid, rather, you never could. I'm sorry for being weak. Even if you were able to cry I'm sorry to have cornered you to this point. Forgive me for thinking about myself only.

[02:35] Seeing you sleep like this it'd seem nothing’s changed. To be honest I've no idea what's happened to you. I wish I could help but I don't see how. When I think about what Natsuki and Haruki might have done to you, only terrible things come to my mind. I wish this whole nightmarish situation was only a dream. Why did this...?

[03:41] To you, who is gentler than anyone else, more sensitive than anyone; resisting this with all you’ve got, with this small body of yours. *kiss* Forgive me; I'm a failure as a brother. I want to treasure you as my little sister; nonetheless, I love you as a woman. I can't forgive myself, not that, so you mustn't forgive me. *kiss*

[05:12] I won't escape again, I'll face it as it is. Let's go back together. *steps* I'll go and find a way to leave this mansion. Wait here for me like a good girl. *kiss* *steps*

I couldn't promise before my mother's grave that I'd take care of you as a brother. She loved both of us equally, yet I failed. I want to continue loving you, even if it never comes to more. I don't want anyone opposing this feeling. I'm sorry. Even if fragmentary I want to love you. I want to wath you, even if it’s just your back. Allow me just that.

Katsubou Method. Unfulfilled yearnings. Nase Ichiya. Kaji Yuuki.



Track 06 - ENDLESS LONELINESS (Short version) - Soraru